Thursday, June 05, 2008
devastating !
man. today smth really devastating happened! i transferred my pictures folder into my hard disk quite some time ago and i didnt really check whether everything is there or not. awhile later i found out and i tot it could be retrieved or smth lidat.but... i tried to retrieve it today and its all gone.. this is one of the most painful experiences one can have haha. its somehow like losing ur memories, good ones especially. its years of pictures so as to speak. those pictures were accumulated since the previous grads were still in our grp! when there was still the housekeeping team in RC, the pictures of everyone working hard to clean up RC. when the TP grads first had one outing to the jurong ice skating rink. when i went for my thailand mission trip to Hope Nakornpathom! all these pictures of memories are gone just like that! worst still, i don't know why its not there in my folder even! so in the morning i was practically crumbled. totally gone man! man the last time my photos were deleted cos my com had problems and needs to be reformatted. it had values of years of memories as well, that was even worse. those were the times when the old east D1 were together! the times when i was new believer. really devastated i turn to God and ask Him why haha! i mean seriously! and tt was before i wanted to do my devotions, and so before i did the devotions for today i really prayed that God would speak to me about this haha. its simply heart breaking. and today's devotions is on getting what you want. i was quite shocked to see it at first, cos i wanted to get back those photos. at first i didnt really get what God was trying to say, i mean those photos were definitely one of the treasures i held dearly in my life ! at first i couldnt get wad God was trying to say but as i continue to meditate on the devotion and the word of God i really prayed God would help me learn something frm this! this is a super painful lesson and it would be such a waste to not get anything out of it! and at the end, God reminded me of what the treasures of the heavens are! the souls of people and the things God has called us to do. and this qns was posted to me and i simply had nth else to say!If these treasures of the earth that are held so dearly in our heart and when we lose it we feel such excruciating pain. how much more should the pain be when we see lost souls remain lost. and we see the things God has called us to do, undone! how much more should we feel when ppl leave God! after that, i understood everything God was tryin to bring across this painful experience. i really pray that God would help me feel the pain He feels when He sees lost souls remain lost, and the things that needs to be done is not yet done. the importance of serving Him. and i pray that if you still do not understand the amount of pain yet, i pray you would understand it soon. not because i want u to suffer! but because when u understand it, u would do things and view things from a different perspective, one that is with urgency.after all at the end of the day, God does not count what we have achieved in our life. but what God counts is the amount of things that God has called us to do and we have accomplished it. what are some of the things that are not what God has called u to do and yet u r doing it? an what are some of the things that God has called u to do but u still haven done anything to it? i have repented haha! so many things that i've not done and so many thing that i've done but useless! pray tt anyone w/o the urgency to give God their best after readng this post, u can start to feel God's heartbeat more clearly.[God counts the things that He has called us to do and we have done at the end of the day.]
aloy; 9:32 PM